It feels good to walk outside today. I jogged, walked, and ran in intervals for a whole hour. As I did my routine at the park, I also took time to notice the beautiful weather and the faces of the passersby. There are all sorts of differences that I have witnessed for every step that I took while I was out running/jogging/walking. I thought about what goes on inside their minds. It might be that they also have problems so they are out to unwind, but moreover, I knew that they are out at the park to release stress and be relaxed for once. I realized ( for the millionth time, but finally fully acknowledging) that I should not shoulder all the problems in the world, or my world. There are so many things I should be thankful for, so many things I should appreciate and embrace, yet, I am sulking in my room for the past couple of months just staring on this computer screen. Pathetic, is it not? Well, until recently when a special friend tagged me on her note did I awoke from a long fantasy-filled dream where all of my wishes came true. It is now finally over. I am moving on. This is it. I am done waiting. I am done contemplating. I am done self-pitying. I am done! Moving on with life is so much better than getting stuck with the past that might have been all pretensions of whatsoever. My future seems to be brightening up and highlighting that, today I was interviewed for the UIC Honors College. I hope I get admitted because it will change the course of the road I am taking right now. I am indecisive, I admit, about where to go for my second year of college. I thought about just transferring to a better school after freshman year but then if I get in to this Honors College then i would not need to. Anyway, when it comes to my much anticipated summer, I think I will be having two jobs; one for the day and one for the night. I have to help out with the expenses at home. I am no longer dependent. I am now INDEPENDENT. I am so much HAPPIER!
I have to go now. I just wanted to write the present events occurring.
-I feel good-
Friday, May 8, 2009
Friday, May 1, 2009
Embracing the changes seems hard, is it not? Well, for me it is. So many times I have asked myself about how come no matter how much I tell myself that I cannot let this or that happen, it still happens. I have no control of it whatsoever. Complains should have no place in my thoughts as I am already lucky to be alive with families and friends that loves me and cares for me. What else do I need? What else should I want? NOTHING! How much I would give just to be able to feel less, or if not, maybe just become little thick skinned. I am very emotional and I guess being like this is the reason for so many dramas in my life. It should not be like that. I must be happy with what I have. I will start today. =)
...:::... AP exams are coming and I have been reviewing ever since. I feel confident on getting a good score for Chemistry but the rest, God knows. I guess I can get a decent score for English Lit. and Human Geo. but Calculus and Physics are kind of hard to predict. When this is over, it will be so much better. Two weeks from now will be a breeze and then it is time for prom and graduation. I will surely miss my closest friends from high school. I hope that college will be so much better. I would love to meet new people and be able to adjust as well as become a little bit more sociable and not tend to only socialize with people I already know.
...:::... Anyway, yesterday night I had a chance to talk to an old friend a.k.a childhood crush Rem. I felt good reminiscing with him about the fun things we did back when we were kids. I am 19 ( almost) and he is turning 20 soon. How fast time flew and it just makes me realize that distance really does make the heart go fonder not ponder. ( this quote is a little confusing so I will explain later) I missed him so much and he said he is the same. He even thought I looked prettier. WOW. I blushed so much when he said that. I wish he could be here or that I could be over there. I just miss everybody in the Philippines. I hope I can go back in December.
Quote time!
" Distance makes the heart go FONDER."
- My interpretation for this is that when you part with someone significant in your life, you will miss them and cherish every moment you had with them. While you and that someone are apart from each other, your feelings does not change at all. Thus, it remains the same or better. As an example, Rem and I made up for the lost time by talking for hours last night and it was not enough, although, we surely did miss each other.
" Distance makes the heart go PONDER."
- Now this makes the difference. To ponder means to think, contemplate, to look within... People growing apart from each other are perfect examples for this. I cannot explain more.. It hurts me cause I fall in this quote category,if I may say.
But, as my life goes on, challenges will come and I know I will face each and ever single one with my chin up. I will fight it.
-Andrea-
...:::... AP exams are coming and I have been reviewing ever since. I feel confident on getting a good score for Chemistry but the rest, God knows. I guess I can get a decent score for English Lit. and Human Geo. but Calculus and Physics are kind of hard to predict. When this is over, it will be so much better. Two weeks from now will be a breeze and then it is time for prom and graduation. I will surely miss my closest friends from high school. I hope that college will be so much better. I would love to meet new people and be able to adjust as well as become a little bit more sociable and not tend to only socialize with people I already know.
...:::... Anyway, yesterday night I had a chance to talk to an old friend a.k.a childhood crush Rem. I felt good reminiscing with him about the fun things we did back when we were kids. I am 19 ( almost) and he is turning 20 soon. How fast time flew and it just makes me realize that distance really does make the heart go fonder not ponder. ( this quote is a little confusing so I will explain later) I missed him so much and he said he is the same. He even thought I looked prettier. WOW. I blushed so much when he said that. I wish he could be here or that I could be over there. I just miss everybody in the Philippines. I hope I can go back in December.
Quote time!
" Distance makes the heart go FONDER."
- My interpretation for this is that when you part with someone significant in your life, you will miss them and cherish every moment you had with them. While you and that someone are apart from each other, your feelings does not change at all. Thus, it remains the same or better. As an example, Rem and I made up for the lost time by talking for hours last night and it was not enough, although, we surely did miss each other.
" Distance makes the heart go PONDER."
- Now this makes the difference. To ponder means to think, contemplate, to look within... People growing apart from each other are perfect examples for this. I cannot explain more.. It hurts me cause I fall in this quote category,if I may say.
But, as my life goes on, challenges will come and I know I will face each and ever single one with my chin up. I will fight it.
-Andrea-
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