Well,well.... birthday is over. It was fun overall but I had mixed emotions all thru out the day...

-My friends, Mimi, Vic, and Van brought me to Ignite to rent the Rockband room. It was really cool because right when we went in, Sam followed us. I was shocked because he sang for me. Oh dear... If you just knew how wide my smile was. He gave me a candle-less cake because we can't light up anything inside the room since there was a smoke detector. LOL. Sam hugged me too! How nice and sweet! =) I failed twice from singing and playing the bass, but it made it even more fun! Haha! Oh well, I can come back and play again. Yey! Gonna see Sam again! WOW. =P

-My family and I went to Java and Mug to have some Korean desserts. I had my usual fruit bingsoo! It's soooooo good! Yummehh in my tummmmeh! I told my mom that I was upset in the morning because I told her that I would prefer and choose to have a slice of cake with a candle on it over the money they gave me. See, I am happy when I see cakes with candles. Every candle serves as a wish for me. I could wish from it even if it does not come true. If you guys would just know how much joy a cake with a candle brings to me. I am a kid. I think I did not turn 19, but went back and turned 7 instead. LMAO. They bought me a cake with lots of candles at the end of the day. I was happy.

* I was upset that Paul forgot my birthday. If Ate Ira did not try to remind him that it was my birthday, he would have completely forgotten. It got me sad because I told him I wish he was here to celebrate my birthday with him and he replied that he wishes he could be here just as well. He forgot...

* I was upset that I had to ask for a cake from my parents when I said that that is the only thing I want and nothing more. They bought me a cake.... but I had to nag them about it. How pathetic could I be? I don't care. I prefer cakes more than anything else on my birthdays. I love them because I feel special when given one. You have to understand.. that is how I am.

I have to sleep now. Tomorrow is another day. My birthday is over but the celebrations are not! Looking forward to seeing my little sister Haian and get sushi together. I missed her so much!

Goodnight... thanks for a wonderful birthday. I am not upset anymore. I am sorry for being upset. I guess I am entitled to it once in a while, so give it to me today. I hope next year is better. I cannot wait... well.. there is December to cheer me up. I am going back to Brampton. I will see my friends again! I am excited.

( I met a new person today. he gave me a hug and sang happy birthday for me. His name is Sam. Hi Sam! It was nice meeting you! )

Batman... you forgot.. but it's okay.... I guess it's not so bad to forget things at times. I understand... like always. I miss you. See you soon! <3

-Andrea-

Happy 19th Birthday to me!!! I am thankful that I was given another year to live and enjoy life. I am happy to be alive and in good health. Hopefully, this year will be full of adventures and fulfilling moments both in school, family life, and love. I did not plan to do anything special this year unlike my past birthdays. I am just happy to be alive and excited as well. There are so many things that makes me so thankful and happy. I will enumerate the ones off the top of my head.

1. Like I said, I am thankful to have lived another year because it is another chance given to me to become a better person. I will make the most out of this year and enjoy life as much as I can. School comes first, but I will have fun too!

2. I am thankful that my mother is recovering fast from her surgery last week. I may be a little upset when she nags, but she is a mother and that is what she is suppose to do: to lead me and tell me the things she knows that will benefit me. I love you Mommy!

3. I am thankful that I have father that takes care of his family and would put us first before anything else. My dad is the best father in the world. Seeing him take care of my mother like that and not leaving her side makes me admire him more. Even if he did not pass his certification exam, I know he will do better the next time. Good luck Daddy!

4. I am thankful for having such nice friends that cares for me as much as I do for them. Thanks for always being there for me. Special mention: ATE IRA- Thanks for the status message Happy Birthday greeting! ;)

5. I am thankful that today my Bessy replied to my email and greeted me Happy Birthday. I miss you so much Mei! I hope you continue to do just well. That message made me very happy.

6. I am thankful that my uncle passed the board exam for nursing. Congratulations uncle!

7. Last but not the least. I am thankful for knowing a special person that makes me happy effortlessly. Thanks Paul... for everything, =) Although you forgot that it was my birthday. It's alright as long as you don't forget it next year.

I ended up having 7 reasons to be thankful! Wow! Lucky 7, eh?

-Andrea-

Yesterday was family day! It was not as fun as I expected it to be, but I was with my family which I rarely see come together like yesterday so it's all good. We had so much food that I thought I was gonna go in a state of coma! Just by looking at it you will feel really full. By mid noon I got a little bored waiting for my baby cousin to come so I went upstairs and thought of taking a nap. I ended up sleeping for 4 hours! I woke up and my dad told me that my other uncle is not coming, therefore my baby cousin wont be there too! What a bummer... >.<

I think I wont be too happy to turn another year older, but I am excited to celebrate with my friends that I have not seen this whole summer.

Summer is going to end in a month and school will start soon. I hope that this school year will be good for me. I wonder if I would still want to apply for Johns Hopkins University, Brown, Yale and Stanford for next year. It seems like a dream.... just a dream if I could actually get in.

Anyway.... I'm missing Batman really bad. =(

-Andrea-

Another dream relay perhaps?

I woke at around 6:30 am today and I could remember snippets from my dream. Not as clearly as I could right when I woke up, but I could tell some parts.... In my dream I was at the airport here in Chicago and I was there to pick someone up. I was picking up Paul cause he came to visit me from Canada. From what I could remember, he was wearing the Batman shirt. What happened next... I am not sure anymore. I texted him right away about how I dreamt about him coming here and visiting me. In that same text message I said.. "Hey Batman!"

He just replied a couple of minutes ago and he said...

"That's so weird. I was wearing a Batman shirt when I fell asleep last night. 0_0"

Too much of a coincidence? I was thinking maybe... if you have heard of astral projection? It is an out of body experience where your soul wanders by itself either knowingly or without your consent. Maybe you did come here to Chicago last night and I met you at the airport. I wish my dream was longer... or that I could remember all of it. Wow. It would have been so fun and amazing if it was indeed astral projection.

-Andrea-

I used to love it when it rains. Now... I wish for it to go away. I am not sure why I feel like I am lacking something right now that is raining. It's just that I think I am longing for something I do not have or I cannot have but I am not sure what exactly that could be. The past couple of days was not dull or anything. Am I just dissatisfied with how my life is going right now? I have no reason to be dissatisfied. I have everything that I need but for one thing. That one thing should not make me feel as bad as this anyway.

I told him that the rain makes me feel sad for no reason... He said he likes the rain... What if opposites do not really attract. Could it have been the other way around?

The sun is shining now. I should feel better. =)

-Andrea-

Today was a little hectic. My mom was rushed to the hospital in the morning due to her lower abdomen complaints. The doctor said she has an acute appendicitis and it requires a surgery. She had the surgery and now her appendix is gone. Hopefully, my mother recovers fast from this. I pray that she gets well soon. As for now, I cannot do anything for her but to let her know that I am taking good care of my siblings specially my little brother. Tomorrow will be my first day at work and I am excited about it. It's another job at a coffee shop but so what? I am in dire need of money that I will do anything just to be able to help my parents.

Mama, I love you and get well soon! =)

-Andrea-

He said his mother likes me a lot... because she knows everything that I did for him. I am not sure what good things I have done, but I am thankful that she knows how I feel and what I'd do for her son.

I hope to meet you one day. Thank you for liking me. =)

-Andrea-

I am glad that just one smile and I could brighten up your day and lift up your mood. I really want you to be happy and as much as possible I want to be one of the reasons that can make your day. You know how much I'd give just to be there for you. I am always here. I was delighted to hear you call me babe again. It has been a while since the last time you called me that. Only last night did I really sleep well. I slept well because I made you happy, or at least better than how you were before you saw the video that I made. Anytime that you'd need someone, like what I said in the video, you can always count on me. <3

-Andrea-

Hello...

I finally got hired yesterday at Coffee Beanery and might get a second job at Pacsun. How lucky, eh? Although, when I heard from you that it has been really hard these past couple of weeks, I felt sorry. I want to help you in ways that I can. I am always here for you and you know that. I got your back! :)

I am sorry for my last entry... asking such things and not even knowing what you are going through right now. I feel bad. I hope things get better soon. Actually, I know they will. Hold on there. I know you are tough. Just hold on.

-Andrea-

I would never have the courage to tell you in person, on the phone, as a text message, or even on skype everything that I have in my mind right now, but I will write all of them here... why.. I like you and love you this much. I will make it sound like a story, though we all know that not all stories have a happy ending. Mine will end on a desperate note.

Hello there! Have you ever heard of the song "I wanna grow old with you"? 

I wanna make you smile 

Whenever you're sad 

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad 

All i wanna do, is grow old with you 

I'll get you medicine when your tummy aches 

Build you a fire if the furnace breaks 

So, it could be so nice growing old with you,.... 

I'll miss you 

Kiss you 

Give you my coat when you are cold 

Need you 

Feed you 

Even let you hold the remote control. 

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink 

Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink 

Oh I could be the man that grows old with you 

I wanna grow old with you.

This is my all time favourite song. =) Today,  I watched a really beautiful but heartbreaking movie. It was heartbreaking to me because I was jealous because it seems like the bond they had and the vow they made to each other will never apply to you and I. Do you know what are the reasons that justifies why I like you and love you? I will tell you all of them....

I like you because you are the only person that makes me happy yet also sad at the same time. I like you because you have the greatest barrier or wall that seems to be unbreakable... you are a challenge to me that I wouldn't me failing to conquer, but later on succumb to. I like you because you smile only when I make you, but it also makes me wonder if you smile because I forced you or if you smiled because of me. I like you because of the toughness you possess... it makes me feel safe. I like you because you want to stand on your own feet and make things your own way... it is admirable.  I like you because you are mysterious in ways only I could feel... I find it cool and sexy. i like you because I love you. I love you because I like you. I like you not only because of the unique traits that you have, but also physically. I like you because you have the most beautiful pair of eyes that I have seen in my entire life.... yes... your eyes seems cold when seen up-close, but I also dream to be the one to make them warm and thoughtful. I like you because you are the tallest man I have hugged ever so tightly in my whole life and that looking at your face would require me to stretch my neck up to a duck's neck length... and when we hugged before.. you just used one arm and you already grabbed my whole body... made me feel secure. I like you because you have that cute crooked nose I would always want to pinch. I like you because you have that kind of smirk that makes me think... about what it means and what it could have meant if I was wrong. I like you because you are not afraid to express your feelings when you are mad and when you think people have been unfair to you. I like you because I miss you and I can't let go.... no, I can't. I like you because you are not messy and everything is well kept...though keep in mind that nothing could ever be so straight. I like you because we share the same interests, though not all of them. I like you and love you because of the serene quietness you have.... though it seems so appalling that I am the complete opposite. I like you and I love you because we are opposites... opposites was said to attract each other: do I attract you? I like you because of all the good things and the flaws that you have... And I like you and love you because I would rather have the worst times with you than have the best ones with someone else...at least I will experience the good and the bad with you.. just you. 

One day, when I finally muster all the courage that I need, I will tell you all of these in person.

I was born six months before you. I had to wait in this world alone for you for six months. In the future, I will wait a long, long time. Stall all you like. Take all the time you want. I am not going anywhere...

-Andrea-

Hello there! =)

Today is the happiest that I have been in a while. I had a good sleep even if I slept at 3 AM and woke up at 9AM. Beautiful and happy dreams were there too and I can remember snippets of it. I am so happy. =)  

EXTREMELY OVERJOYED and THANKFUL (for technology: i.e. WEBCAM/SKYPE)

I'll see you later! ^_^

-Andrea-