So who can answer me why I am always self pitying? Is it not stupid to do so? I hate myself sometimes cause I am not as skinny, I don't have the perfect skin, I am not that pretty or not really pretty. I hate how I criticize myself like this. Whenever I see those girls with nice face like everything is perfect... no matter what I tell myself I still cant stop thinking they are way better. 

ugh! 

dammit